I’m getting ready to homeschool Oliver in the fall. I’ve been saying we’re going to start for a while, but I like to ease into these things, you know.
I feel nervous about showing up every day; what if I fall into depression and can’t muster the energy to facilitate and teach? I feel overwhelmed with all of the choices and what if I buy something we hate? I feel worried that his education is going to be totally lopsided, favoring language and art and beautiful things but completely weak in history and nonexistent in science…because science? Doesn’t interest me.
Oliver is really mechanical. Lego diagrams look like religious pamphlets from another planet to me. How can I help him learn in this area?
I think it’s the Official Start thing that has me most concerned. We learn every day here– it’s not like he’s been sitting around watching tv and eating cereal for the past six years and I’m going to roll him off the couch in August and say, “Okay Oliver! Time to start your Education!” It’s the planning and prepping, the organized learning, the accountability– that’s the new part.
I’ve had a list of goals for my son’s education listed out for several years, since he was an infant. I revisit them and tweak them periodically. I just don’t know how achieving these goals is going to look on a daily basis. I guess we’ll work it out as we go along, like marriage. I think we’ve probably been working it out along, since the very beginning.
But I’m still nervous.